One Last Dream

Dream big and pursue it. But what if you are not destined to aim that dream, despite the hardships and perseverance you mounted? Will you still strive, even if you only have a wee time? Or just stop and dream for another dream?

I'm a big dreamer and a hardworking pursuer. I have always dreamt of 2 things; one is a profession and the other is a competition. They've been my dreams, ever since I was a little kid. I submitted to the gradual process so as to gain experience. I took the so-called "stepping stone". Patience and courage were my magical sword. Having passed every course of action uplifted my spirit. But now that I am 22 years old and haven't achieved them yet, I am losing hope.

Young, still I am. But I feel like my dreams are becoming far-fetched. They are going beyond me... way, way beyond me. Call me pessimist! But here... Try to put aside negativity and step your feet on a realistic pavement. Not all people who exerted massive effort for their dreams succeeded. What might be the reasons? One might not be having all the means (location, season, age, connections, money, etc.). Cast out hypocrisy. I do have a point, don't I? Another might be the different plan of destiny, which is more harrowing. A person may have all means and all positive characters, but if a thing is not meant for you, you can do nothing then.

I just dropped my dream competition for I realized I do not have the prowess and connections, seriously and realistically. I am alright and happy with all the springboards I previously joined.

 

I am currently working on my dream profession. This is the reason I got back to the Philippines. This is my dream where I am willing to give up everything. If it would cost me to fly back to Saudi Arabia or even go hopping on every country in the Middle East, my tickets and luggages are standing by. I know I sound too desperate, but I am hungry for this. This will not just give  me sense of fulfillment, but a stability in life as well. I already reluctantly renounced one dream, I won't let it happen again. I do not want another broken dream.

My biggest fear now is to say this line after a long run... "I did everything, but God has another plan for me". Sadness will be felt, but I trust Him.