Insecurity Does Not Kill

Nowadays, the word "insecure" is in the mouth of the majority of the teenagers. When other criticizes him/her, s/he immediately anticipates insecurity is the prime reason. And when s/he says it, s/he thinks the person is envious of her/him. I tell you what, I am not familiar with the word "insecurity". I am not going to talk about those people who throw negative comments at others resulting from envy. It is the other way round.

Rarely do I use this controversial word. You can count on your fingers how many times I pronounce it in one whole year. Sure, I have haters (Who does not?), but I never accused them being insecure. Not because their judgments are true. Nearly all of those are brickbats, but still I never called them one. As far as I can remember, the last time I think of a person being envious of me was way back first year high school. It never happened again afterwards.

Maturity played its role maybe or it could be I began to see the colorful side of life. But I believe that contentment is the key here. When you are contented with your life, you tend to bury all negative things around you. As for me, I am beyond happy with my life. Yes, I don't have everything but I am very much contented, indeed. This is what makes me overlook those numbskulls who love dashing animosity towards me. Not just that, I actually find every person around me beautiful/handsome and nice most of the time.

Stop accusing others being insecure or envious of you. Well, he could really be, but do not criticize back and just make him feel he is also wonderful instead.

To Tom From Angela

Dear Tom,

I've tried to tell you this, but I could not. I've felt scared. Or maybe I've felt shy. Or it could be I felt guilty. I do not have the courage to say this to you so I am writing you this...

I always get annoyed when you suddenly tickle me or kiss my cheek in front of other people and you still laugh at me. Did I ever say that I get fuzzy from inside?
I always get toe cramps because of wearing high heels all the time and you are there to massage my feet. When was the last time I said you are a gentleman?
You always hold me close and say "please stay here a little longer" but I never granted that request. Did I ever mention that I love to be with you always and all ways?
I always complain about how big my eye bags are and you are there to tell me that I am still beautiful. When was the last time I said you are sweet?
I always mock the spaghetti and bread rolls you cook for me and I would just see you pulling a face at the corner. Did I ever mention that you cook so well?
You always try to get home early after your gig so I would not be worried but still I get mad at you. When was the last time I said you are very tolerant?
I love baby talks when I please you and eventually force you to do the same way. You tried so hard to talk like a baby and I insult you. Did I ever say you look so cute when you do so?
You are willing to drive the whole city just to give me the impossible-to-find food I crave for and I get upset if you do not find it. When was the last time I said you are thoughtful?
I rise my voice to you when I am being stubborn then you would grab my hand to kiss it and say "Angela, please stop?" with your soft voice. When was the last time I said you are patient?
I get irritated when I get jealous of a girl or even when you get jealous of a guy, but either way, you are still the one who apologizes. When was the last time I said you are the only one?

One time, I called you stupid. But I was definitely wrong. I am the one who is stupid. I am self-centered. I only care for myself and you care so much about me. I can be the most stubborn girl but you can be the sweetest guy in this world. Despite the patience and kindness you've been showing me, I chose to hurt you. I just focused on your flaws and overlooked all beautiful things about you. I am sorry. I am sorry if I stopped appreciating you. I am sorry if I stopped thanking you. But you gotta remember that I never stopped loving you. You are a wonderful person, Tom. You are...

Love,
Angela

Valentine's Is Just Around the Corner

Someone asked what my ideal Valentine's date is and this was my answer:

After that, I was like "Hey! What could be my ideal valentine's date?" I have never planned for this special day, maybe because surprises from a guy would always pop out first. So, I deeply thought about it. Imma tap away and share my thoughts:

1.) Adventure-filled Escapade
Let us not go with the usual things, like chowing at a fine-dining resto. Eating is a necessity, so you can dine at any restaurants you hanker after, ANYTIME. I believe something adventurous would be a nice idea. You can go on a road trip all the way to Tagaytay and try the zipline/cable car. You may like to scream with Bohol's The Plunge. I have also a friend from Olonggapo. She said you can encounter exciting ventures at the place. Well, this is not something mushy but all these undertakings are heart-dropping. Lol!

2.) Child-at-Heart
Many of you may not find theme parks romantic. This may not be apt for Valentine's. But I would love to feel scared before I ride a roller coaster, then a lover would gently hold my hand to soothe me. That way, I would feel secured. Ugh! The corniest thing ever. Haha! Kiddin' aside, we need to be kids again. We need to play, run, and chuckle like children once in a while. And theme park is the best place where we could act like one. The 2 giant amusement parks in the Philippines are Star City and Enchanted Kingdom. This kind of place would help you exhale bad vibes.

3.) Sandy Beach
I would be in awe if I see a gold sunset reflection on water. This is the first thing I would look for when I go to a beach. Couples can sit on the shore as they watch the sunset. This could be a very romantic moment for the two of you. Also, there are several activities that can be done on this place, from snorkeling to scuba diving. Of course, there is plenty to do on top of the sea, as well, from sailing to water skiing.

4.) Movie Marathon
Bring out all your DVDS. Try all film genres. I have a long list of movies I like to view and most of them are about romance. I don't care if you find me hopeless romantic. I would love to watch "The Notebook" while lying in someone else's arms and gobbling either nachos or popcorn.

5.) A Ride for Pleasure
Joyrides are amazingly gratifying... for me. You and your partner can wander the city. No need for destination. Seeing the lovely surrounding in the morning and its bright lights in the evening could release all stress. Play your fave songs to be more relaxed. If you happen to see a particular place during the trip, downshift and stop the car. Go and visit!

Apparently, my ideas are not that super-duper romantic. No flowers, no chocolates, no ring because these stuffs could not make this day extraordinary, neither the place where you plan to spend it at. Why? It is because both of you hold the magic that creates sweetness and that turns Valentine's into a very romantic day. :)