Annizah Camid: An Infelicitous Second Look on the Year 2013

(Mukha akong sasali sa Miss Gay. Lol! I don't care! Haha!)

I remember my retrospective on 2012 that I did last year. I mentioned on my blogpost, "Review & Reflect Upon the Year 2012", I felt like there was this baggage I left in 2012. I was wrong! I actually took it with me as I voyaged to 2013. It was a baggage that I should've left the earliest. A baggage that I handled improperly.

I became a sinner. Mountainous mistakes were committed. (Not a crime, alright? Neither drugs. OMG!) One is a lifetime mistake. What I thought to be a kindness turned out to be a wickedness. I was at my worst. I don't know if I only made a wrong decision, or perhaps I was not smiled on by good fortune, or it could be karma. There's too much negativity around me.

Though it is agonizing, I still want to take a second look at the things that happened last year. Here:

January

Celebrated New Year with the whole family.
Made a birthday presentation for Daryl
Met Dan, brother of my former schoolmate Baste
KT at Seder Compound. I enjoyed their hospitality.
Accidentally bumped into my highschool batchmate, Sharifa, at a certain birthday party where we had a shooting.
First hosting job with a new katambayer, Ate Pen
I learned that Paolo/Monkey guy had been telling some of our mutual friends that we had a relationship before. This made me angry that I droped his name o FB.

February

February 8 - hosted Lel Brothas Rock Middle East concert. I was criticized by some for letting Arab guests take pictures with me. My sister actually scolded me in front of the producation team. Lol!
Feb. 19 - I had my first virtual conversation with Patrick
Photoshoot with my KT Family
Reunited with my twinnie bestfriends, Joseph and Alyanna, at Pizza Company after 2 years
KT shoot at COMSOFIL's awarding ceremony

March

Kuya Tim and Brian returned to the sandbox
Mjhae's Gift of Music. It was a birthday concert where we had our production number.
First meeting with Doctor BJ Jurilla, a very chivalrous man
An issue about Tito Nadz's sprouted. TFC Riyadh got entangled on the issue.

April

Patrick, who I used to call Buko, had a vacation in the Philippines
Gave into Gwiyomi craze. I made a video. Check this out: My Gwiyomi
My parents did too - Gwiyomi Parents at Elchico
KT shooting with the RED family
Stopped exercing and began to munch all food I want
Seifeldheen's birthday celebrated at home

May

Ate Yayah's birthday
The longest and warmest hug I got from winkie guy
The whole family flew to Philippines on May 10 for a vacay.
Patrick flew back to Riyadh on the 11th. We dint see each other. Lol!
Mother's day
Finally created an instagram account
Met the whole production team of Kabayan Tambayan. Shot at Ilocos Norte with the Cardio Boys and Francis Pega. I got tanned... Big Time!
Rode cray cray rides at Enchanted Kingdom
Met some of my college chums and other pals
Kabayan Tambayan 1st anniversary
May 27-29 - First Asian tour. First 2 days were spent at Hongkong, last day was at Shen Zhen, China
KT at Ilocos Norte Episode was aired - KT at Ilocos Norte
A coffee tryst with Doctor BJ. He got to see our house in Pampanga.

June

A serene summer getaway at Baguio
Midnight hangout with CEU (all campus) former USC
Came back to Riyadh
Alas! Opted to change my passé Nokia & Sony Ericson phones to Samsung Galaxy S4
Father's day
On June 18, Patrick visited me at home. It was his birthday.
Winkie guy held my hand. It was a goodbye touch, I guess.

July

Saudi Arabian crackdown
2nd hangout with my twinnie bestfriends for this year. Alyanna shared her plan of working in the Philippines. She dint encourage me to do the same thing, but I wanted the idea too. So, I immediately told my parents about it once I got home.
No coomunication with Daryl
Shabu-shabu session with my TFC family
Mama's birthday
First kiss
Tita Amy left IGEC

August

Pre-birthday dinner at Holiday Inn with my family.
My birthday. We threw a small party at home with family and friends.. Patrick gave me a watch.
KT shooting at Al Yamama Hotel
Iftar with twinnie bestfriends at Trader Vic's
First good morning
Reunited with my highschool classmates (Alyanna, Joseph, Dante, Hawie, Jesika)
Attended and hosted lotsa events
New admission officers

September

Good times with RIS Babies (Alyanna, Joseph, Florence, Jed, Jesika, Everly)
Ate Jhoy left IGEC
Submitted my resignation letter to IGEC
A big Howdee birthday party of Papa, Bubot, and Irah
Booked a flight to Philippines
A night out with CBFEB - bowling
I was invited by Ma'am Alvarez to become one of the speakers for CEU Mass Communication Convocation, but I had to say no.

October

My parents' anniversary celebrated at Buffalo
Joined FuGen's Palarong Pinoy, held at Fantasy Land. Encountered a huge yellow python and took a pic with it.
Media & Culture Club Riyadh invited me to host a concert, but I rejected it.
A 2-day Eid rave
My ex-boyfriend came back to Riyadh.
Joseph and I were two of the judges during RIS Field Demonstration

November

Nodded to be one of the models for Clicks of Hope. I was under RCA.
Start of being a jobless babe
Chili's with the Esponilla Family
Kuya Jonjon and Ate Ezzel got engaged
KT at PKR's Opening of Basketball League and shockingly saw Dan

December

Made a lifetime mistake
Touchdown Philippines
Established the mini-mart. Yep! I became a vendor. Lol!
CEU USC get together
KT shoot at SM Pampanga
A sombre Christmas
Became one of the bridesmaids

Of course, I would not broach my sins and go into details. I hinted at it, notwithstanding.

We are about to sail on the 3rd quarter of the year. Unfortunately, there is no progress in my life yet. I am not getting any results, albeit I try hard. No matter how devastated I am now, I still want to end this with a hope.

I am struggling right now, yet striving. There may be times that I feel hopeless and helpless, but I still wake up happily every morning and I manage to thank God before I head to dreamland at night. I know I'll get through this real soon. I can't wait to be at the finish line.

A note of thanks to these good people: