Grateful is how I feel towards people who care to ask because I feel they personally care for me. I prefer to be asked rather than be mobbed by with issues. But let me composedly give a small clarification to what people assume about me. :)
NO SUITORS. I am being honest here. I have none. Years had passed and I only gave permission for wooing to one man, that was my then-boyfriend. After the break-up, I did not entertain others anymore. It is not because I'm completely stuck in my past. A couple of wise reasons are in my mind.
Others say, a man would not have the courage to confess his admiration of me because he thinks highly of me and that I am superior. He might anticipate I would just dump him because of my high standards in men. I don't understand what they mean by that. Neither don't I see myself superior nor picky, not even fastidious. I ain't perfect, nor beautiful enough to be airy and be on my high horse. Perhaps, I just keep my guard up. However, as I often affirm, I am a commoner. The real reason behind hesitation to entertain suitors is I am not ready yet. Yes, this may be the most cliché excuse a girl would say. If you don't want an overused one, I might as well say "I am lazy to entertain".
Coming from a long-term relationship affects a person socially. In my case, there is this feeling that I don't wanna start from scratch, not that I haven't forgotten my past yet. It's just that I am lazy to know everything about the person, particularly the pre-friendship questions. For instance, "what is your name", "how old are you", "where do you live", "how many siblings do you have", and the like. I don't want to get back to ZERO. I mean, NOT THIS TIME... not now... Well, to be honest, I tried to make friends with few. But I am a "flash in the pan". I talk to them for a few days and end up cutting the communication. When laziness strikes me, I stop no matter how fun-to-be-with and interesting the guy is. And as soon as I notice or feel the guy starts hitting on me, I place barricade between us.
This setup is like business. You were able to establish a huge earning business, then it suddenly flopped. Of course, it would take time for you to construct business anew and enter into a small one. Superior, I ain't. Ordinary person I am and not a superstar. High standards in men, I don't have. No one's perfect. Sweet, smart, and loyal person is what I look for. But again, not now. Haha! Eventually, I'll be ready to date someone else... in God's perfect time. =)
If you will be my next beau, please wait patiently 'til I'm ready then take me to the shore for I want to see the sunset with you. ❤❤❤
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