Outside My Experience

I walk along the long street of Maryland without feeling merry at all. Where is the beige painted wall? Where is the pink comfy bed? I cannot hear the booming laughter of children. Neither a music coming from a pink netbook that brings relaxation every night. Phineas and Ferb no longer goof around the room. How about those tasty food and refreshing juices prepared by an uncle who cooks like a pro-chef?

@ ABS-CBN Global

These things are nowhere to be seen today and tonight. Every object I hold is strange. Every wall I lean on is unknown. Every face I meet is unfamiliar. Every street I walk onto is unexplored.

@ ABS-CBN Global

My training in ABS-CBN has begun. Nervousness did not exist in my vocabulary list the moment I stepped on the furnished floor of our office. I don't know. That's what I felt! My stay there is fine though it's pretty boring sometimes. I have no close friends yet. My bosses are affable and colleagues are friendly for they smile at me every time I bump into them. I have no problem in any way, so far. Fortunate I am because some of my classmates likewise work at the network, on other department though. So we possibly meet or munch together during lunch time / break time. Not to mention, I am friends with their bosses too and was able to bond with them. Haha!

with the Aksyon Ngayon-DZMM family @ Garahe

I am living an independent life, as I conjure up an image of myself now and understand the scenario. I live in a dormitory (in Maryland street) with various professional women and one gay call center agent. Well, he is considered as a woman technically. No... by heart! Haha! Our landlady is aptly caring. I am the youngest among them which makes me feel like a youngest sister by their warm treatment.

with my classmates @ Garahe

Everything sails smoothly, I may say. I benefit from this for I learn how to be self-determining. But honestly, I don't feel happiness with this set up, so do my parents and guardians. They regularly check on me and my parents make overseas call, only to make sure I am safe. If you ask the reason behind staying in Manila... It would be more dangerous if I drive myself home (in Pampanga) every night.

ABS-CBN building is surrounded by bunch of restaurants and bars. The colorful moving lights and lively music I hear give me sadness. I walk alongside those resto bars as I go in search of my car, and then I would whisper, "My super friends and I will certainly enjoy this place". The environment is just perfect to chill at with my super friends. And ugh! They are not with me. I have problem which only appears every night and that is WHERE-TO-HAVE-DINNER. It is a problem for me because I kinda feel awkward each time I eat in a resto alone and some diners stare at me. There was one night I had my dinner at ChicBoy. It's a good restaurant but there were few tables seated by guests who drank liquor. I just felt uneasy. Due to my stay in Manila, no one's there to cook yummy food for me. It's either I go to a fast food or some fine dining restos. And I'm sick of it. It hella gives me craving for sardines, tuyo, dilis, longanisa, and the like. My schedule for my training is deadly, like what I've written on my previous blog. It is tiring, making me want to sleep for one whole day. Tiredness is seen on me; weight loss, darker eye circles, slim cheeks. I appear like a 30-year-old lady. (-_-)

Despite the hardship I carry on my shoulder, I still want to take it positively. I convince myself that it is only a challenge and I will be able to hand my parents a diploma afterwhich. And I try to enjoy every single of it as much as I can for this is a once in a lifetime experience. A new out-of-the-country vacay (not in the kingdom of Saudi Arabia) is waiting for me. I can't wait! =)