Never Rush

I wanted to age so fast. I wanted to grow old at a rare of knots. I always wished, time would fly quickly. This was all because of selfish reasons.

When I was a kid, I wished to be a teenager quickly so I could use make up and hang out with friends. When I became a teenager, I wished to be a young adult quickly so I could go anywhere I want without receiving a "no" from my parents and earn money. Now that I am a young adult, I want time to crawl at a snail's pace.

As I began to age, I noticed that time does go by faster. How? Through my mama and papa's wrinkles on their smooth faces and their heads covered with some grey hair. I feel pain every time my eyes spot these. No, they are not weak. Their legs are still firm. Their eyes and vision are still clear. My father can still carry a sack of rice whereas mom can still do yoga with me. But there is something that scares me. It is when the time comes that only wheelchair can bring them to beautiful places instead of their legs... that cloudy and blurry places would be seen by their eyes, instead of green grasses and colorful rainbow... that they can no longer lift their hands to touch our bulbous cheeks.

I don't want to think about it. Believe me! But it is inevitable. I am frightened. Presently, papa is struggling with arthritis that makes it hard for him to fold his legs every time he prays (sallah). Recently, mama went through menopause which caused lack of hemoglobin. We rushed her to the hospital as she felt very weak. Mama was told that she has growing fibroid (Myoma). Seeing them suffering from pain terribly wounds my heart. If only pain could be shifted, I would snatch it.

My father is all set for retirement. He has been trying to resign but the company did not allow him. But this year, no one can stop him. His business in the Philippines is ready to operate anyway.

They are still strong. They can still see. They are still healthy. And I want them to be like this for a thousand years, not in a figurative way, but in a literal one. And I know this is far-fetched! I will just hope that time moves slowly. I don't mind if my parents will not allow me to hangout at far places. I don't care if I still need to ask permission for every action I do. I don't take offence at their strict parenting, all because I am still young, living with them. It is alright! Ayokong dumating yung panahon na gagala ako kasama ang mga kaibigan at hindi na kailangan magpaalam kasi wala na kong magulang. Ayoko ng ganon... Ayoko...

To each of you who wants time to fly fast, please do not. Let it crawl. Rejoice every second with your loved ones. Join every heartbeat you hear from their bosom. Remember, clocks go clockwise and not anti-clockwise. You can never turn back time!

Breathing Space

It has been a month since the last time I scribbled and doodled on this page. What have I been up to?

After ranting and ranting about the strain I got from work, I finally took one-month vacation in my homeland with the family. It was a leisure, indeed, but it was more of a reuniting-with-your-valued-ones episode. A month is too quick! It is just like staying at wonderland for a jiffy.

Prior to my vacation, I had long lists of where-to-go, what-to-do, and whom-to-meet. Some of these happened and some did not. Unexpected things even took place, which was great. So let us sift:

Where to go's:

1. I went to Hongkong for 2 days and to China for one day. The most unforgettable experience occurred at Disneyland.
2. I went to Ilocos Norte for the shooting of Kabayan Tambayan. This adventure turned me into Morena.
3. I went to Enchanted Kingdom for some woozy and dizzy rides.
4. I went to Baguio to see the picturesque tourists spots and to breathe cool fresh air.
5. I was not able to go to Boracay or El Nido or whatever beautiful beaches could be seen in the country.

What to do's:

1. I unexpectedly experienced water sports, like jet-ski and banana boat, at Pagudpud.
2. I joined the 1st Anniversary celebration of Kabayan Tambayan.
3. A tree-top adventure at Baguio.
4. I experienced going home late, at around 4-ish a.m., from Eastwood.
5. I did not have the time to do a shopping spree at Divisoria.

Whom to meet's:

1. Relatives are neighbors too. No need to set an appointment. Lol!
2. Had lunch with Super Friends.
3. Chilled with my chums from CEU Malolos, Makati, and Mendiola.
4. I personally met the crew of Kabayan Tambayan.
5. Had a workout session with my Rockwell gym-mates.
6. I was unable to visit my Alma Mater and my bosses from DZMM Aksyon Ngayon. I felt bad for Ma'am Alva invited me to visit CEU and Sir Zaldy asked me when I would see them.

This breathing space was short but several joyous moments were gathered. It even became more joyous as I spent time with good people. I promise, I will make it up to all my friends I did not see.

This one month vacay just took stress away from me, gave me motivation to continue working abroad, and boosted up the felicity of my soul. 'Til next time! :)