Outside My Experience

I walk along the long street of Maryland without feeling merry at all. Where is the beige painted wall? Where is the pink comfy bed? I cannot hear the booming laughter of children. Neither a music coming from a pink netbook that brings relaxation every night. Phineas and Ferb no longer goof around the room. How about those tasty food and refreshing juices prepared by an uncle who cooks like a pro-chef?

@ ABS-CBN Global

These things are nowhere to be seen today and tonight. Every object I hold is strange. Every wall I lean on is unknown. Every face I meet is unfamiliar. Every street I walk onto is unexplored.

@ ABS-CBN Global

My training in ABS-CBN has begun. Nervousness did not exist in my vocabulary list the moment I stepped on the furnished floor of our office. I don't know. That's what I felt! My stay there is fine though it's pretty boring sometimes. I have no close friends yet. My bosses are affable and colleagues are friendly for they smile at me every time I bump into them. I have no problem in any way, so far. Fortunate I am because some of my classmates likewise work at the network, on other department though. So we possibly meet or munch together during lunch time / break time. Not to mention, I am friends with their bosses too and was able to bond with them. Haha!

with the Aksyon Ngayon-DZMM family @ Garahe

I am living an independent life, as I conjure up an image of myself now and understand the scenario. I live in a dormitory (in Maryland street) with various professional women and one gay call center agent. Well, he is considered as a woman technically. No... by heart! Haha! Our landlady is aptly caring. I am the youngest among them which makes me feel like a youngest sister by their warm treatment.

with my classmates @ Garahe

Everything sails smoothly, I may say. I benefit from this for I learn how to be self-determining. But honestly, I don't feel happiness with this set up, so do my parents and guardians. They regularly check on me and my parents make overseas call, only to make sure I am safe. If you ask the reason behind staying in Manila... It would be more dangerous if I drive myself home (in Pampanga) every night.

ABS-CBN building is surrounded by bunch of restaurants and bars. The colorful moving lights and lively music I hear give me sadness. I walk alongside those resto bars as I go in search of my car, and then I would whisper, "My super friends and I will certainly enjoy this place". The environment is just perfect to chill at with my super friends. And ugh! They are not with me. I have problem which only appears every night and that is WHERE-TO-HAVE-DINNER. It is a problem for me because I kinda feel awkward each time I eat in a resto alone and some diners stare at me. There was one night I had my dinner at ChicBoy. It's a good restaurant but there were few tables seated by guests who drank liquor. I just felt uneasy. Due to my stay in Manila, no one's there to cook yummy food for me. It's either I go to a fast food or some fine dining restos. And I'm sick of it. It hella gives me craving for sardines, tuyo, dilis, longanisa, and the like. My schedule for my training is deadly, like what I've written on my previous blog. It is tiring, making me want to sleep for one whole day. Tiredness is seen on me; weight loss, darker eye circles, slim cheeks. I appear like a 30-year-old lady. (-_-)

Despite the hardship I carry on my shoulder, I still want to take it positively. I convince myself that it is only a challenge and I will be able to hand my parents a diploma afterwhich. And I try to enjoy every single of it as much as I can for this is a once in a lifetime experience. A new out-of-the-country vacay (not in the kingdom of Saudi Arabia) is waiting for me. I can't wait! =)

No Quitting

Hurting feet from long-distance driving; puffy and buggy eyes from sleepless nights; squashed mind from overthinking; and weakening and slimming body from busyness... All were obtained due to loads of commitment I carry. Neither do I hate nor regret that I devote myself to these for I look upon them as blessings. It is just that my body and mind feel like quitting.

My on-the-job-training will start this Tuesday. Deadly schedule is what I got. I am assigned in ABS-CBN TFC's Balitang Middle East. Hence, the production follows the time there. Philippine is 5-6 hours ahead of Middle East countries. Monday is considered as day-off. During Tuesdays and Wednesdays, my work starts at 2 pm and ends at 8 pm. I need to be in the office at 2 pm on Thursdays til 7 am of Fridays. Na-uh! You read it right. 17-hour work then imma rush to CEU - Malolos Bulacan for my 11:30 class. Also, I have my classes during Saturdays. My boss did not command me to have this toxic schedule. I accepted it because I want to accomplish it as early as possible. Not to mention, that is only for my 120-hour TV OJT. I still have to deal with my 100-hour radio OJT.

It doesn't end there. I joined a competition and there was no reason to ignore the opportunity. Honored is how I feel to be chosen as a representative of a university. That's why I accepted this commitment, once more. For this, we are required to attend rehearsal every Monday, Wednesday, and Friday at CEU - Mendiola Manila. Since we are located in Malolos Bulacan, our adviser and USC president opted to only show up on chosen crucial dates. And this is extremely terrible! C'mon! I drive from north to south followed by executing catwalk for 2-3 hours straight with my 5-inch heels, expect me to drive myself home? Fortunately, I'm with a newly-met friend who knows how to drive. Yehey! Hahaha... Do you know what makes my journey in this competition easy-peasy? It is the support of my school and the people. For instance, Ma'am Ponce gives us advises... no... the best advice rather. Keith, Clarence, Kuya Paolo and Kuya Windsor have been so kind and generous to me.

I was with Kuya Paolo and Kuya Windsor last Friday for a photoshoot. It's funny that no matter how sleepy and exhausted I was, everything seemed to be just fine. It's prolly because of Kuya Pao's wittiness and Kuya Windsor's chivalry.

Because of my situation, my parents are worried about my health and my safety when I travel back and forth between Pampanga and Manila. Hopefully, I'm gonna find a shelter around ABS-CBN building.

So tired I feel towards the end of the day, but I'm having fun. Partly because it makes me forget a particular problem and of course it's worth it. I meet different people, gain new friends, showcase my skills, broaden my horizons, and appreciate folks around me. And hey! This is my last semester of college, so I must treasure every moment of it...

Two Different Hearts

He wore blue shirt. She wore pink dress.

He put on his slip-on shoes. She put on her doll shoes.

He carried a back bag. She carried a shoulder bag.

He put a monocolor tattoo. She put a colorful make-up.

He collected gadgets. She collected accessories.

He was into music. She was into fashion.

He excelled in programming. She excelled in broadcasting.

He watched sci-fi and action. She watched drama and romance.

He drank beer and smoked cigar. She drank shake and avoided smokers.

He partied hard at home. She studied hard at home.

He was addicted to gaming. She was addicted to blogging.

He was High. She was Sedate.

Different ways of grooming never became a hitch.

Different interests never became a hitch.

Different mood never became a hitch.

Different dreams never became a hitch.

Diversity makes romance rip-roaring every so often,

That makes it more passionate or even the warmest,

For you have a go to understand and accept each other.

But multitude of diversity turned out to be adversity.

Breathe in, breathe out, silence...

Wanting to linger the tender feeling in all sincerity,

Both were longanimous in the face of adversity

Strong enough to love for a thousand years.

He took a turn in the uptown.

She made her way to the downtown.

Escaping the pain, erasing the memories.

A cry of anguish burst as they parted ways.

He was like this. She was like that.

No matter how different they are,

It is just amazing how two hearts once found each other

In a world filled with ambivalence and difference.

Sail Smoothly

This is the sequel of my blog "Nothing beats the feeling of being w/ my family!".

A 20-day vacation in Riyadh was too quick. I am currently in the Philippines. Homesickness sure exists. After I flew back here, I immediately arranged all the requirement for our On-the-Job-Training (OJT), attended a rehearsal for a certain pageant, and managed my evaluation papers for graduation. But luckily, I was able to pamper myself in a salon.

My last semester in college seems to be tough. Gobs of commitments are in my hands and need to be accomplished before March. Everything's sailing smoothly so far. =) My only fuss right now is my weight. I'm getting thinner. I'm knocking myself out to eat bunch of food. But I can't. No appetite! Perhaps because I think of stuff which are not worth-thinking-of but they inevitably pop out from my mind. Argh!

I'll just update my blog from time to time. I hope everything will continuously sail this way. =)

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Lemme share some photos taken at Ketchup resto in Riyadh. :)

One of a Kind Professor

"Ang sarap sa pakiramdam na maraming tao ang ayaw ka pa ring mag-retire. Hindi yung pag masama ka, ang sasabihin nila sa'yo 'bat ngayon lang? Dapat noon ka pa nag-retire." ~ Director Ed Villarante

Knowledge about production and advertising was acquired for almost a year. It was taught by our great professor, Director Ed Villarante. We call this very responsible professor "Direk Ed", actually everyone does. He was able to create this name because of his excellence he demonstrated during the hey day of Channel 4.

Before we met him, we were already hearing positive feedback about him from higher level students who used to be Direk Ed's students. Hence, we thought highly of him. On our first class, he shared with us the experience he had, from uphill 'til the pinnacle of his career. Common yet inspiring is what we can describe his story. It is common in a way that it is like other directors' story wherein he started out as a untility man (if i'm not mistaken) 'til he became a known director. A person needs to pass all stages or all the positions in a production before he becomes a director. On the other hand, it is inspiring for he never gave up on his dreams. He endured the challenge of production, and not to mention even the foul mouth of other people. He was one of the people behind NBN Channel 4's success. After being a director, he decided to come back in teaching. He used to be a teacher before he entered the industry. And again, because of his virtuosity, he became Centro Escolar University's Mass Communication Coordinator.

If you wonder why I make a blog regarding a professor... The reason is I also want you to be uplifted by my professor's story and I believe that this is one way of saluting his excellency.

Direk Ed will be retiring this coming December. A part of my heart melted when I learned it during AD Fest 2011. I was crying while watching a tribute video presentation for the professor, most especially it was played with the song "Thank You". My classmates asked me why I was crying. However, there was nothing new on my friends' part for they knew I easily get move by that kind of thing. Lol! =D

I am very much happy for our director because he will retire as he holds the respect and appreciation from his friends, colleagues, and students. But there is sadness too because we are going to miss him. =( I remember what he jokingly said in his speech after he eyed the tribute video, "Alam nyo, pakiramdam ko malapit na ko pumanaw". Hahaha... Direk Ed is a serious-type but he can be a joker at times.

Direk Ed did not only taught us about production and advertising, but learning that are unseen on books as well. Not only knowledge, but wisdom. He surely says good values before he ends a class. The advice he gave us that I would never forget was "always love your parents and consider their sacrifices."

On our last class day, he uttered a very profound statement and that is written above this blog.

His whole life was spent educating pupils, building a quality education for CEU, creating ideal flick, and touching many lives. Director Ed Villarante can now make himself at home and chill out with her mom.

Rest assured that everything he has taught us will forever stay in our hearts and mind and will be our gear to be successful in our career.

THANK YOU, DIREK ED!!!

Nothing beats the feeling of being w/ my family!

I was kicking my butt off with bunch of school works for almost 5 months. Could you imagine how I survived 2 theses and 1 advertising all at the same instant? How did I pull through traveling back and forth between Pampanga and Manila everyday? I survived simply because I wanted to make my family proud of me and wanted to bring good stories when I get back in Riyadh.

Camid Family

After all the pressure and efforts I unleashed, I am unwinding with my family at last! No wonder. I verily find peace of mind when I'm with them. Stress-free! I mean, far from school works, far from Philippine's pollution, far from various problems... Just pure joy. Oh how I missed my family so much! I miss my mom's cooking, dad's jokes, 2 nephews' naughtiness, and my 2 sisters' kaartihan.

Alamada family

My mom and dad celebrated their 30th anniversary on 26th of October. The family's complete and so the happiness is double.. or make it TRIPLE! =D

We love you mama and papa!

Surely I've eaten Riyadh's famous food by now, shawarma and kabsa. These 2 can now be found in Philippines too, but Riyadh's has the best taste! Shopping would never be forgotten, of course. I already have my things-to-buy list.

I'm never too old for this ride. :))

I'm gonna stay here for few weeks only, not gonna reach a month. Yes, it's too quick! I won't be able to stay here for ages because second semester starts soon and many requirements and commitments are waiting for me in the Philippines, especially am a graduating student. Therefore, before I fully devote myself with those, I'mma make the most out of my stay here in the sandbox.

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Check out my previous summer vacation 2011 in Riyadh:

http://annizahcamid.blogspot.com/2011/04/hello-riyadh-its-nice-to-be-back.html

Worthless Tattoo

Your name is tattooed in my heart and mind
Because I believed you were one of a kind
That every girl would truly love to find
Only to find out, this belief just made me blind.

Now, I'm loathing the feeling
Making me believe that you're not lying.
You told me everything would be known
And that promises would never be thrown.

It feels like I'm pricking myself with a needle
Just to put a tattoo in the middle.
It is true that "to forget you" is all I want
But unloving you seems to be hard-to-dunt.

I can never wipe off this tattoo
Which can be considered as a stain too.
I believe that one day I would wake up
Asking, "what is this worthless tattoo that showed up?"